The first beat I ever made was a banger to this day so the following year was mad frustration at not being able to do it again.
Trying to learn guitar, drums and keyboards, reading about music theory, messing with Garageband, Reason, Cubase. Trying to find out what the hell reverb was.
Then quitting my job, selling my house and leaving my fiancee so I could go to audio engineering college for sleepless nights and 4-day recording sessions. Found Pro Tools and Logic, learned some crazy shit, went mad, lost all social skills.
Became a virtual recluse, making beats and smoking weed, communicating only with fellow producers and engineers.
A good year..